Afraid of change and meeting new people

Greetings,I read and I went  through what you had written and it is not very healthy for your self wise and otherwise as well.Having said that, with each word that you were typing, I am sure you might have lived through the entire experience its tough. Whilst you were typing I realized that there is a realization in you that you are aware of the state of mind that you are in and you want to get out of it.Since, you want to get out of this situation, the solutions are pretty crystal clear that you have to sort this relationship with yourself and others with you, and focus on finding spaces where you can express yourself and now a days there are various coaches available for everything. Hope this helps, Meanwhile we are always here to listen to what you have to say so  write back to us and talk in depth about it so we can better help you out with thisThanks.