i want to save my abusive marriage

Dear Writer, thank you for writing to us. I hope you are comfortable with me responding in English. If not then please let me know. Firstly I understand you in a lot of pain. To have suffered abuse by your husband and fighting over the smallest of reasons can really be depressing. I think you are emotionally drained from what your are dealing with. You are an educated and a well qualified woman and mother to a beautiful daughter but you are not feeling very good about yourself. The state of your relationship has affected you so much that it has changed your outlook towards life. We can work on that here. Do you think we work on making you focus on yourself and take decisions to help your situation?
With respect to your husband, firstly he needs help if he is drinking and hurting you. Physical abuse is a punishable offence. If he drinks a lot then he might need an alcoholic rehabilitation program. It can be a threatening situation for you. You have to make sure that your safety is taken care of. Do you have someone to help you when your husband gets violent?
Secondly to understand you and your situation better, can you tell more about yourself. What are your expectations and hopes? When did things become so difficult in your marriage? Answering this will aid me in helping you.
Don't lose hope yet. There's so much more to your life and so much strength in you. You have to believe that you worth taking care of and worth the effort. You might have to take control of your life to change it for the better.
Please message back to continue our discussion or if you feel you would rather talk about this then you can consider a phone session as well. We are here to help. Regards.